MommyWeighLess

My sweet little Scarlett Rose turned four a couple of weeks ago. My sweet little Scarlett Rose started Pre-K on Monday. My sweet little Scarlett Rose started showering all by herself. My sweet little Scarlett Rose now puts herself to bed at night. My sweet little Scarlett Rose.. .please so down ...you are growing up way too fast! Mommy can't pick up the pieces of my heart quick enough to keep up anymore. Becoming a parent is amazing. But being a parent sucks... a lot . It is like we go from holding these beautiful little bundles of baby goodness that rely on you for every. single. tiny. thing ...to BOOM! ...little persons all their own that don't require your services anymore. Tossed to the trash like a used tissue. But I love that feeling. Confusing, right? I know. You should... or could ...be in my shoes. I love seeing her blossom into this amazing person. I love that she is hard headed and independent. Those things will take her so far in this life. I lo...

So instead of going out for a long walk/run on this amazingly beautiful Saturday afternoon...I find myself cooped up in the car waiting for Dustin to finish playing in the junk yard. Thankfully there is a great breeze coming in through the windows, and the kids have decided they are going to behave. With that said...I am completely content. My man is in his dirty greasy car part element, my babies are cool and enjoying the peace and quiet of the country, and I am happily blogging while listening to the Gator vs. Tennessee game. Go Gators by the way! It is days like this that I am so thankful for the amazing life I have been provided. I am even more thankful for a healthy and happy family. And, in reality,  who could ask for more? How many people in the world are taking for granted this wonderful life we are each given today? How many people are stuck at work? How many are struggling with personal issues? Health issues? Money issues? Or just unhappy in general? I used to worry i...

Okay...so the title is slightly dramatic. And I am slightly hormonal. But either way...any female that has had their period can sympathize with my drama. Or I like to think so at least. This post is a pity party post and I apologize for it now. But I had to vent so i wouldn't consume everything in my kitchen. I have cramps from an unholy place, cravings for salts and sweets that would tempt the devil himself, and a dwindling will power. I. Am. Fighting. And so far I am winning. But that doesn't help with my foul mood. Or the pimple on my chin. Or my deepening dark evilness that is oozing out. And I hate feeling crazy. I know I'm not the only one. But that day before your period. The one where a fly buzzing ten feet from you can send you off the deep end....yeah...that's where I am in my cycle. Who knows? Tomorrow is another day. Maybe my psycho will compose herself by then. And a couple miles and some self defense class will help too!

Today was a very tough day for me, but an eye opener nonetheless. I have neglected my blog, my page, my goals...and most importantly myself. I decided to go back to work about 6-7 months ago. The kitchen in the office was full of junk and sodas, we ate out all the time, and it was SO easy to fall back into old habits that I had worked so hard to change. So easy. And so disappointing. I am disappointed and disgusted with myself. I have put on weight. I have put on 20 of the 50 pounds I worked hard to lose. But what I gained in pounds I lost in employment. Let's just say it was a crappy day. Thankfully I have a good man by my side that supports me in everything I do, and now I can get myself back on track...and spend more time with my beautiful family. But it lit a fire under my butt the size of Texas!!! *** I am enrolled in school, class begins on the 29th! *** I have re-written my weight loss goals and health plan. Even though life is a little undetermined at the momen...