MommyWeighLess

I am ashamed and disgusted with myself. I have lost the love I once had found for my body...and I don't know how or when. It been over the past nine weeks. And it saddens me. I worked so hard before Evan was born to not only lose weight, but to learn how to love myself, and I now find myself back at square one. I'm ashamed. But determined none the less. I will fix this. So instead of a New Years Resolution...I'm making a Decmeber 28, 2013 resolution. Starting today I am going to make myself accountable for myself. I will start tracking my food, working out daily, and do what I need to do to be the best me for me...and my family. I won't make excuses for my gain. I am to blame. I haven't been eating well, counting calories, or exercising. I have gained close to 10 pounds over the course of nine weeks. I am now 204.0 pounds. I have 44 pounds to lose to make my goal weight. I want to reach my goal by the end of May. Not a totally unrealistic goal but I won't be...

So it's Thursday...the day I have designated for my weigh in. Now I am not an advocate for the scale, because the scale does not always tell the truth. Non scale victories are far more important than any number on a scale. Don't let that number define you and all your hard work. My NSV (non scale victory) this week was fitting back into my size 12 jeans! Woohoo! They're a little snug but anything is better than maternity pants! But I also had a scale victory this week. Last week I weighed in at 196.8. This morning I actually weighed in at 194.8, a 2 pound loss, but I didn't photograph the scale until after breakfast, so I won't count it. Instead I'll count the after breakfast shot which was 195.4...*sigh lol* Either way it's nice to see it move down after watching it go up for 9 months!