MommyWeighLess

I have been slacking so bad when it comes to fitness. I started a full time data entry job about 9 weeks ago, and after working and having to come home and take care of business here...well I'll make my excuse now...I'm too tired to workout. Been eating poor...here's my next excuse...because I haven't made the time to plan well balanced meals. Tonight after looking at myself with disgust, I have set my alarm. I am going to get up at 6:30am every morning and go for a walk/jog. The kids will be asleep so I can't use them as an excuse, and starting the day off on a healthy note will help me be more conscious of my food decisions. I'm excited to get back into the groove of things, and sad I have been putting it off so long. So say a prayer I don't hit snooze on that silly little alarm.

I am ashamed and disgusted with myself. I have lost the love I once had found for my body...and I don't know how or when. It been over the past nine weeks. And it saddens me. I worked so hard before Evan was born to not only lose weight, but to learn how to love myself, and I now find myself back at square one. I'm ashamed. But determined none the less. I will fix this. So instead of a New Years Resolution...I'm making a Decmeber 28, 2013 resolution. Starting today I am going to make myself accountable for myself. I will start tracking my food, working out daily, and do what I need to do to be the best me for me...and my family. I won't make excuses for my gain. I am to blame. I haven't been eating well, counting calories, or exercising. I have gained close to 10 pounds over the course of nine weeks. I am now 204.0 pounds. I have 44 pounds to lose to make my goal weight. I want to reach my goal by the end of May. Not a totally unrealistic goal but I won't be...

Well I had my post partum 2 week check up today, and my wonderful OB cleared me of post partum depression. He said I was doing t o o well to be suffering anything more than baby blues. And I agree. I feel better...much better. No more weepy pitiful mommy. I'm baaaccckkk! Well pretty much. I walked well over 2 miles last night while trick or treating with Scarlett and it felt good. My body didn't hurt and no post partum symptoms emerged. The doctor cleared me for exercise and I can't wait to get moving! Even though I am not suffering from depression, there may be a mommy out there that is and if you feel you are or suspect you are...please seek medical help. Do not be ashamed. And if you suspect a mommy of suffering from depression please offer help. A 15 minute break can make a mom's day. My biggest take away...be compassionate. Not only to moms...but to everyone. You never know what someone is going through. And your friendly feature may change their life.

So it's Thursday...the day I have designated for my weigh in. Now I am not an advocate for the scale, because the scale does not always tell the truth. Non scale victories are far more important than any number on a scale. Don't let that number define you and all your hard work. My NSV (non scale victory) this week was fitting back into my size 12 jeans! Woohoo! They're a little snug but anything is better than maternity pants! But I also had a scale victory this week. Last week I weighed in at 196.8. This morning I actually weighed in at 194.8, a 2 pound loss, but I didn't photograph the scale until after breakfast, so I won't count it. Instead I'll count the after breakfast shot which was 195.4...*sigh lol* Either way it's nice to see it move down after watching it go up for 9 months!

Well, I have been MIA for a while. And I greatly apologize to anyone that follows me. I have been super busy preparing for baby, and now taking care of baby. Its amazing the difference between my two deliveries and I solely lay blame to my fitness and dietary changes. My pregnancy this time around was easy peasy lemon squeezy! And labor and delivery...a breeze... 8 hours compared to 18. 4 pushes compared to a million. No tearing compared to multiple stitches. On my feet in less than 20 minutes. Uterus completely retracted in 24 hours. No weight gain whatsoever. Those are just a few of the differences. And I owe it all to a new lifestyle. When they tell you remaining active during pregnancy makes for an easier delivery, they weren't kidding. Now... If only it prevented baby blues. I battled them with Scarlett, and it seems I am again. This time a little more severe, and a lot of that has to do with my very temperamental toddler. I worry I am teetering between baby blues and ...