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My Eating Disorder

My battle with food is a battle I will fight for the rest of my life. I know this. I hate this. But I can win at this. I traded one eating disorder for another it seems. I went from overeating and eating my feelings, to obsessing over calories. MyFitnessPal helped me to lose weight. But I realize just how much calorie counting has consumed my life. So I am deleting MFP. I refuse to fall victim to a life of calorie obsessing.  These questions have plagued me daily for several years now: What my intake should be? How much did I burn? Does it fit my macros? Should I eat back my burned calories? What is the calories in this bite? Will I have enough for a small dessert? Will this blow my daily sugar/salt/fat? It is an endless bombardment of obsession over calories! I am done! I don't want food to run the rest of my life. I want to enjoy food without fear. But also respect my body to only give it what it needs, with the occasional treat on the side. I have decided I am going t