A Year In Retrospect

It is so bittersweet that I will be hosting a giveaway tomorrow for my fitness page and it marks the ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF MY WEIGHTLOSS!

I have been on the journey, heart and soul, for a year now. Complete dedication.

This time last year I was piddling around with my health. I would workout every now and then, eat right, but still eat wrong, and wondering why I had not lost much weight. After a family vacation photo and a rude awakening at the doctor's office...I realized I needed to take care of myself. I needed to take losing weight and getting healthy serious, not only for me but for the beautiful family I had started.

Vacation June 2012- 231 pounds

I come from a family of health issues and obesity. Every time I go to a doctor and we do the "Family History" part of the workup I swear I check yes on every box. Here is a sample of just some of the diseases I say yes to with my head a little low (most of which are preventable):

Diabetes
Heart Disease
Heart Attack
High Blood Pressure
Cancer
Stroke
Kidney Disease
Obesity

I am not trying to tear my family down. I have a good family that I love, I only wish they would take better care of themselves. This list has all of the top killers in men and women on it. This list is also 90% preventable with a healthy lifestyle. This list scares the heck out of me. I do not want my children to be sitting in a doctors office in 20 years checking those boxes. I want them saying things like..."My mom is 40+ and running marathons, do you think she has a bad heart?!" At least that's my goal for that time in my life.

This year has been trying, difficult, fun, and there were so many times I wanted to give up...but I didn't and I still haven't even though I am pregnant. While I am maintaining my weight...I will resume losing once Baby gets here. I still have goals. I am still overweight. I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life.

A New Year starts for me tomorrow...even if it is the middle of June! I am starting it 50 pounds lighter. A bun in the oven. Dreams of a healthy future. And most of all happy within myself.

When we found out we were pregnant!

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